Whoa time flies

It's been a while since I've blogged anything. Must have got caught up in life I guess. I now live in two places splitting my time at them. I honestly hate it so much because I spend more time away from home than I actually spend with people I care about. But it's the life of a minor. I am forced to go with my parents where ever they decide to go. 

Totally starting to feel a teenage rebellion coming on. In my opinion and in what people have said to my face I've been a pretty good kid my whole life. Heads up, that is about to change. I don't want to be separated from the people I care about anymore. I don't want to be in charge of my learning. I want to go to public school with my friends and for school to be over at 2:20. Currently I am in school from 8 to 8 trying to finish assignments before finals in a week. It's a lot of pressure and almost more stress than public school. Just kidding, public school is super stressful but just offers more support and help. 

But the big thing is, everybody I love and care about is here. My family that has never abandoned me. My friends and boyfriend who are my support system. And I'm being forced to more 2,000 miles away because my mom abandons me for her job and my dad chases her. (newsflash she doesn't have a caring bone in her body.) My dad is forcing me to go because he has cancer. Here's the thing, what happens if it comes back? Who is going to support me through it? What would happen if the worst thing possible were to occur and he passed away? 

I would have no one. 

My dad is the only person I really care about. But I don't want to sacrifice myself for him. I'd fall apart out there without him. I'm not asking him to give up my mom, I'm asking him to let me be happy. I want to be at home even if I have to live with relatives I'm not exactly fond of. Maybe I'll be stuck here forever because of my love for my hometown. I don't think I will be though. Once college comes I leave and after that I'll find a place to settle down with the man I love. I'll have him and honestly with how much he means to me I don't think I'll need anything else.